Let It Go

You are who God says you are! Walk into what He has for you! It’s worth it! Let “IT” Go! 


I Can’t Get The Door Open: Part 3

So in this blog we are going to talk about a door that’s ajar, or to shorten it up we’ll just say “Ajar Door”.

My definition of an Ajar door in this blog is to be compared to an actual door that is ajar. The word ajar means slightly opened. In life we may have had ajar doors that didn’t go any further to become an open door. For an example, in Part 1, B received follow up emails from the jobs that they were applying for, but it never led to an interview or we may have been interested in someone but it never  went past a few dates, or in my case inquiring about a job right out of college where I thought the Manager was on board with hiring me. 
My Ajar Door story:
After I graduated college, I was in close contact with a Manager of an organization that I was interested in working for. I was a go-getter and was wanting to see if the Manager would be able to create an assistant position for me at one of the facilities. The Manager and I discussed all of the details of my goals before I went in for my interview. Before my interview, I worked on my resume, cover letter, requested my transcript from college, and even put together a plan of action in how I would serve the population that I would potentially work with. So the day of my interview, the Manager and I went over everything that I had prepared, but the interesting thing though is after the Manager and I reviewed everything, the Manager busted out and said that they didn’t have enough money in budget to pay me…….my thoughts were “uhm, did you not know this when I initially told you what my goals were over the phone“?!?! Well clearly the Manager had to know there was not enough money in their budget to pay me from the get-go! This was an ajar door for me.

Well what can we learn from ajar doors?

Well first I want us to change our perspective on how to handle an ajar door that stayed ajar. Throughout life when we experience an ajar door we may have allowed it to discourage us. It may have hurt our self-esteem a little, or made us believe that we will never achieve our particular goal(s). Well instead of letting the ajar door be of discouragement, we should actually let it encourage us. It should encourage us because whatever was behind that ajar door that we thought was awesome, fabulous, and IT, was not meant to be an open door for us. So be of encouragement that if the ajar door was so awesome, fabulous, and IT, than imagine how much greater that your open door will be!!!! 

My Open Door:
God had a better plan than my ajar door. I didn’t get the career with that organization, but I didn’t let that stop me. I kept searching for job opportunities. The next year I saw that there was two job opportunities similar to the job that I had previously interviewed (Open door). I applied for both of the job opportunities online and within 30 mins one of the jobs called me back (30 mins is a heck of an open door!). So I went into the interview using the same resume, cover letter, transcript, and plan of action (already ready!) that I used when I was denied the first job, but this time I got the job! With being hired on the job that I was hired for, I was making almost twice as much that I requested then if I would have gotten the first job that I applied to and was turned down for. Also with the job that I was hired for, we were connected with an organization that has blessed me with the ability to travel to different places that I’ve never been before, see things that I’ve never seen, and meet people that I’ve never thought I’d meet, all of this for free, which I would not have been able to do these thing if I would have been hired at the first job I applied to because they did not have these same connections.

So no longer look back at your ajar door in discontentment, but be content in the fact that your open door came or that it’s coming. 

Trust God for open doors, if you are exposed to any ajar doors along the way, let it encourage you, and if it’s meant to be it won’t open slightly, but all the way. 

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I Can’t Get This Door Open Part 2


So in “I Can’t Get The Door Open Part 1” We went over a few meanings of God’s Will, which were: 

-God’s will for us is always something that is the most beneficial for us/will have our best interest at heart. 

-His will is better than what we knew to even ask for. God is able to do exceedingly, abundantly, above all we could ask or think (Ephesians 3:20), so of course it’s going to be something along the lines of what we love/interested in. 

-When God’s will is revealed, it can help us to develop our trust in Him and see how faithful God is. 

-God’s will helps us to get to where God knows we will be in the future, and not where we currently are.

-God’s will is not the fact of Him trying to control our lives or destiny, remember God is our Father, and just like our earthly parents, they are going to look out for our best interest whether we want them to or not, and of course the final decision is up to us whether we choose to go with His will or not.

We also saw in Part 1 how certain doors opened for B, and how certain doors didn’t open/were closed. 

For awhile I struggled with knowing “God is this you, is it not you, is it me? God I can’t hear you!” So here is the story on when God showed me how to know: 

Towards the end of 2014 there was something that I was interested in pursuing but I ended up forgetting about. So at the beginning of 2015 up until now, I started speaking, claiming, and trusting God for newness in different areas of my life, not sure what God was going to do specifically, but I was solely convinced that newness would occur.  So one day, a little over a month ago, the desire that I was interested in pursuing at the end of 2014 came back to my remembrance, and it crossed my mind again on the next day. Well on this 2nd day that it crossed my mind, someone came up to me and said the same exact thing to me in regards to what I was wanting to pursue! That had to be nothing but God! That was my confirmation!  They would have never known that I was thinking about pursuing this thing! So I looked up information so that I could start pursuing it, I had to wait a few weeks until I could make the initial step to start, but when I was finally able to make the initial step, another great confirmation coincided with the next step that I will take! So while this was going on God spoke to me out the blue and told me how to know if my specific desire is His will/timing ….basically I would know if it was His will and timing if and when doors opened! 

 Let’s imagine a door in our house that is closed (if you actually want to go to a door in your home it’s fine, lol). The door will  represents the pathway to our goals/desired. Let’s say if you turn the door knob and the door opens with ease, you’re able to walk through it, the door pushes you towards your goal, and the door ultimately leads you to your goal……that’s one way that you know that your specific desire is in God’s will and timing. Sometimes there may be more than 1 door that you have to walk through but each door will push you closer to your goal, and the end result will be your desire. Remember God’s open doors coincide with who God is and it doesn’t go against His word or character. 

On the other hand, let’s say if you are trying to open the door, but the door is locked, and you’re doing everything that you can to open it, you tried opening it with a key, a bobby pin, screwdriver, knife, tried shaking the door, tried kicking it in, but it still wont open, what you are after may not be in God’s will or His timing. God either has something better in mind than what we are after or we will have to wait and go through a preparation stage (other doors before we get to our desire) so that we will be able to sustain and not fail when the door does open. 

Proverbs 3:5-6 says Trust in the Lord with all of your heart, lean not to your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths. 
We can trust God to open the correct doors in our life, so that we won’t get burnt out trying to open a door that’s not meant to be open. Our faith does not have to be perfect, just when doubt starts to rise up, speak against those doubts, don’t entertain them, and don’t give in to them. 

In Part 1, we see that the doors that were the most favorable/rewarding/gainful for B, was the doors that opened and the doors that were not the most favorable/rewarding/gainful did not open. We can see in B’s career how 1 open door led to another, as well as how the open doors led to an additional blessing, which was B’s house. Even when the hiring manager told B that they found someone for the position, the hiring manager turned around and gave the position to B!!!!!!! 
So there will be a Part 3 ūüėä. Part 3 will focus more on Ajar Doors, Closed Doors, and Trap Doors. 

Questions, Comments, or Concerns, you can list them below or email me at misscriss30@yahoo.com 

I Can’t Get This Door Open Part 1


In life, there are general things that we want and within those general things, there are more specific things that we desire. For instance, generally speaking we may want to get married, but within wanting to get married, we may desire a specific person or specific characteristics, or we may desire to go to school, but more specifically we may desire to go to 4 yr school,¬†or trade school, etc. For a while, I struggled with both knowing when something was meant for me to obtain or pursue, as well as knowing if it was the timing of me to have it. I struggled with thoughts of “Am I moving ahead of God, or “Is this from God”, I’m not perfect, but I don’t want to have, posses, or keep anything that is not from God. Recently God has shown me when to know that a specific desire (this blog is dealing more so with specifics, not general) that I have is something that is within His will for me.¬†

Before I go on, let’s talk about a few definitions of God’s Will:¬†

-God’s will for us is always something that is the most beneficial for us/will have our best interest at heart.¬†

-His will is better than what we knew to even ask for. God is able to do exceedingly, abundantly, above all we could ask or think (Ephesians 3:20), so of course it’s going to be something along the lines of what we love/interested in.¬†

-When God’s will is revealed, it can help us to develop our trust in Him and see how faithful God is.¬†

-His will helps us to where He knows we will be in the future, and not where we currently are.

-God’s will is not the fact of Him trying to control our lives or destiny, remember God is our Father, and just like our earthly parent they are going to look out for our best interest whether we want them to or not,¬†and¬†of course the final decision is up to us whether we choose to go¬†with His will or not, He’s not going to force us.

So again, recently God has shown me when to know that a specific desire that I have is something that is within His will. I will give a real life example at first. 

True Story:

I know of someone, (we’ll call this person “B”), who¬†was looking for growth at their current place of employment. There¬†was a position that opened at B’s place of employment that B was more than qualified for, B but was not granted the opportunity to step up into the position. Because of this¬†B started looking outside of their place of employment for advanced career opportunities.¬†B’s¬†general desire was to find another job, but B’s specific desire was to work for a¬†specific¬†company¬†that was located in a specific city (So the story will flow, we’ll call the city Cityville). Even though B had their heart set on that one particular company in Cityville, B was willing to take another opportunity in Cityville if it was reasonable because they liked Cityville. So B put in job application after application in Cityville¬†and even¬†received emails from companies saying they would contact B, but¬†still no open door.¬†During the time that B was applying for jobs, B began to seek God to spend more time with Him (not necessarily for job purposes, but to build a relationship). In the midst of this, God spoke to B and told B to pack up their belongings (pack up as in B was going to be moving), so with that being said B was¬†believing¬†that God would move them to Cityville.¬†B trusted that God would open up a career door for them, and¬†after a¬†while B stopped putting in job applications. In the meantime they continued giving 100% at their place of employment (because even though where you are now may not be where you want to be, still give it 100%).

One day¬†one of B’s¬†coworkers came up to¬†them and told them about a new open¬†position at¬†their¬†job that they thought would be a great opportunity for B. B¬†went to the hiring manager to inquire about the position, but the hiring manager told B that they were already interested in someone else, but they would keep B posted for future opportunities. B believed that “what God¬†has for me is for me” and two days later the hiring manager called B and asked B if they were still interested in the position, B said yes, and the hiring manager offered B the¬†position¬†right over the phone (B didn‚Äôt even have to interview)!!! B initially took the position because there were no¬†doors opening in Cityville, but B realized that the way everything flowed together B knew that the new position was from God!¬†

So even though B knew that this new position was of God, what was God meaning when He told B to pack? Was God meaning that they would make a career advance now at their current place of employment and move them Cityville later?……………

Well when B received this new position, B no longer desired to look into the other company that was in Cityville, (and put the thought of moving to Cityville itself on the back burner because B didn’t want to leave¬†their job after a few months for experience purposes¬†if something in Cityville opened up).¬†When B compared their new position to the other job that they originally wanted in Cityville, the content of the¬†new position¬†coincided with B’s favorite area of study in college, the job in Cityville did not¬†(B was more so impressed with the job in Cityville’s salary, but it’s always a plus when you are working a job/position that you are interested in). Other perks that the¬†new position had within itself, is that it was a career growth opportunity,¬†and would be a salary advance from the position that B was leaving, and with that B’s new position’s salary was¬†more than what B was originally told that their salary would be when they first accepted the new position!¬†So, yes¬†B put the idea of moving to Cityville on the back burner, but B also had a desire to move out of their place of residence at that time and desired to buy a home.

So B inquired at a realtor company about buying a home. The realtor company showed B a home and B was very interested, but B did not think they would qualify for the home. B however went to talk to a mortgage lender, and B qualified for the home! So now it clicked as to why God was telling B to pack!!! So within a few months not only did B have a new position, B also bought a home!!!

So what has God been speaking to me about knowing if something that I desire is in His will for me or not……..well find out in Part 2 of: I Can’t Get This Door Open ūüėä

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Girl Please, Let Him Use You

Women sometimes can be under the impression that God can’t use them because of their past or their current situation or circumstance, but no matter what you did in your past, no matter what you didn’t do in your past, no matter how bad or ugly your past is, God wants to use you for His glory!!! You are so special to God. We are not defined by what we did in our past, and we definitely aren’t defined by those who are trying to hold our past over our head, but we are defined by who God says we are. Which are all great things!!!! There are quite a few women in the Bible that I know that people probably gossiped about, put down, and tried to hold their past against them, but God ended up using them. Since God has a heart for the hurting, when people criticize us, we are in perfect position for God to use us, and to bless us because of the offense that was done/said to us. So let’s look at some women in the Bible that were probably talked about/put down, but inspite of God used them.

Leah-Her story is found in Genesis 29-30. Leah’s marriage to her husband was a scheme and her husband didn’t love her nor found her attractive (Even though the Bible says we are beautiful beyond words Song of Songs 4:1). So imagine all of the things that people were saying about her and the rejection that she may have felt from her husband.However……she was the Mother of Judah, which makes her a Great, Great, etc Grandmother of Jesus. You would think that her sister Rachel would be the Great, Great, etc Grandmother because she was favored by their husband, but the one sometimes that are the least favorite of men, is the most favored by God.

Rahab- Her story is found in Joshua 2. Rahab was a prostitute that lived in Jericho. Rahab was not an Israelite, but when the Israelite spies came to scout out the Promise Land to see how they would invade/take over( including Jericho). Rahab let them in to her home. Now on the outside of Rahab’s house looking in, probably thought she was “entertaining these men”, but if so they should have looked again, she was actually protecting these men of God, in which she did not have to do because again they were coming to invade her people and land……Rahab, the prostitute, is one of only two women who are listed in the “Hall Of Faith” in Hebrews 11, and I didn’t realize until I started doing my research on tonight that she is the mother of the guy that everyone woman says they desire……Boaz!!!! , Which makes her a Great, Great, etc Grandmother of Jesus.

Bathsheba- Her story is mentioned in 2 Samuel 11-12 and she is mentioned again in 1 Kings 1-2. Bathsheba 1st of all was pursued by King David and she was summons to King David’s bedroom chambers (When someone was summons by the king, they could not refuse). She was apart of the scandal where she committed adultery with King David, got pregnant, assisted in trying to cover it up, and stood by while her husband was killed. Can you imagine the whispers and stares of the people that found out?……Yet and still out of all the sons that King David had, Bathsheba the Adulteress son that she had with King David, Solomon was chosen to sit on the throne after King David, which also makes her a Great, Great, etc Grandmother of Jesus.

I don’t know how to quite end this, but If God used these women, what makes us think that He can’t use us. People have the tendency to judge harshly and will hurt your feelings DEEPLY, and will judge your story but we have to keep pushing. What the enemy means for bad, God will turn it around for our good. He wants to use you for His purpose, Let Him.

If you all have any other women in the Bible that you want to add or life experiences/stories please feel free to share.

So Whatcha Thinking About? Part 2

ImageIn “So Whatcha Thinking About? Part 1”, I discussed the importance of being in the Word and allowing God to renew our mind. When we renew our mind we align it up with the plans and purposes that God has for us. It is important to know who we are in God and allow His word to build up our confidence, if not,¬†the only thing that we¬†will believe that we are able to achieve will be based on the lies of the enemy, and what he tells us is that we are full of inadequacies, when the truth is that¬†God has¬†equipped us. When we feel inadequate, we do not have the confidence to venture out into the great things and the mighty work¬†that God has called for us to do, because we do not believe that we are capable. What is the enemy saying to us? What is God trying to say us? What are¬†we thinking about? What are¬†we meditating on? What are we allowing to seep into our mind and our heart? We can’t become what God says we are, if we are focusing on who the enemy says we are. Proverbs 23:7 says As a man thinks in his heart, so is he (he becomes). The devil plants thoughts in our mind, to get in our head, and in our heart, so that we can fulfill those lies and not the will of God for our lives. The enemy comes to kill, steal, and destroy us, constantly trying to get us not to fulfill our God-Given purpose. I was watching a video clip on Youtube¬†recently by Jennifer LeClaire (she is awesome!!!) called “Discerning demonic Strategies Against Your Life”. One thing that stood out to me that she stated was that when the enemy drops thoughts in our mind, he always whispers to us in “1st person” so that when we hear his thoughts, we think that they are ours. The enemy says ” I am ugly”, so we say to ourself “I am ugly”, or “I’m not strong enough to do this”, “I’m not smart enough”, “I’m not equipped enough”, “I’m messing up”, “I’ll never get over this”, “I’m not going to be able to write this blog right” (LOL)¬†anytime any thoughts come to our mind that brings on discouragement, fear, depression, low self-esteem……basically a confidence breaker, know that it was the enemy that planted those¬†thoughts there, and that¬†we have to cast them down when they come to our mind and replace them with who God says we are¬†until we start to believe those things. For me recently, as I mentioned in Part 1 it was my self-esteem. I did not know that’s what I needed to work on in this season, but it felt good for God to show me that “Hey, this is what I want you to work on right now”.¬† God¬†had been dealing with my¬†self-esteem a few months ago, but I allowed my thoughts to¬†regress (the enemy will try to sneak back in there), and I guess God was¬†telling me, “ugh let’s try this one more time”.¬†So I’ve been taking it verse by verse from the Chapter that my sister from church¬†gave me:

  • ¬†I¬†go over the Chapter starting with Verse one, that talks about how I (you have to make it personal) am _________ (you can fill in your own blank. So when I read it I say, “I am ________
  • I may¬†also go¬†into praise and worship and thank God¬†that He says that I am ____________ and take God (trust God) at His word that He says that I am___________.
  • Throughout the day if I feel thoughts coming in my head that tries to tell me that I’m not__________, I¬†rebuke those thoughts and say¬†no I am________________ and believe that I am in Faith.
  • Sometimes I may just go over in my head and tell myself that I am___________ because I believed the lie that I wasn’t ________ for so long, it feels good to believe something positive about myself.
  • I’ve been trying to do 1, 2, and/or 3 daily. I’m not saying that this is a formula or method and it does not feel repetitious to me,¬†but this is what has worked for me.¬†Find what works for you,¬†but through these things,¬†I’m incorporating what God requires for us to do anyway: Read, speak, and meditate on the Word, worship Him, resist the devil, believe by faith, and spend time in praise and worship.

Because of meditating on this, I now know that I am ___________, but I still try¬†like to read¬†over that particular¬†verse before I read the other verses in the chapter¬†because it’s one of countless evidences of God’s love for me, plus again I like feeling like this. I thank God for His revelation about me!!! Stick with this thing until you believe it, if the enemy tries to get you to doubt again, go back to believing that you are who God says you are! God will deliver! Put your trust in Him, He will not disappoint you! The enemy wants you to think that you will always feel the negative things that you do, the hurt that’s there wants you to think that it will never go away, anytime the enemy tries to tell you those things, began to thank God and believe God that your victory is coming, no matter how long it takes (may not be overnight, but then it could be, either way, it’s coming!). The enemy wants us to stop believing, to make it harder for the receiving! Stay encouraged!!!!

2 Corinthians 10:3-5; Romans 12:2; James 4:7; Romans 10:11

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So Whatcha Thinking About? Part 1

In my Bible Study class we are doing a book challenge for the month April, my book of choice was “Battlefield Of The Mind” by Joyce Meyer. I chose this book because the enemy has been trying to come against my mind and I know that God will meet me in this book. God is so awesome, He met me before I started reading the book. About two weeks ago, He gave me a specific scripture (Chapter and Verse) to meditate on, but I didn’t realize that it was God until I went to Prayer the next night and one of my sisters at church gave me the the exact same Chapter that I got the night before (she did not know what God gave me the night before)!!!! God did not give her a particular verse, but the whole Chapter which let me that instead of zeroing in on the particular verse that I was mediating on, to meditate instead on the whole Chapter. God told her that through the Chapter He wanted me to change the way that I saw myself, and when I begin to read it, I knew that He meant my self-esteem. So over the past few weeks I began to meditate on the Chapter, verse by verse and God began to show me some things. So on tonight as I began to reread the Introduction of “Battlefield Of The Mind” I looked up Romans 12:2 which is a scripture given in the intro. I’ve read Romans 12:2 many times and can quote it (mainly), but on tonight God gave me a-whole-nother revelation of the scripture that I never truly grasped before. The scripture might be elementary to you, but there is nothing like when God illuminates a scripture, it’s like something lights up inside of you. I can feel the Holy Spirit bringing everything that I’ve read together in the Chapter that she gave me with Romans 12:2, it’s like He’s saying to me “This is what I wanted you to see, this is why reading the Word is important, why renewing your mind is important. My word confirms, validates, backs itself up with itself, this specific revelation for you shows you my goodness, it shows how much I love you, this is why I want you in my Word, because it makes you into a better person, it does something to your heart, it soothes it, it let’s you know everything will be ok, it gives you confidence”. Romans 12:2b-“Let God change you into a new person by changing the way that you think . Then you will know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect”. Let’s look at the first part of that verse: “Let God change you into a new person by changing the way you think”. That is exactly what He spoke to my sister at church. Is that He wanted to change the way I saw myself. Why? Because if not the only way I would view myself is through the lies of the enemy. So since I chose (it’s a choice, the enemy will try to steal your positive seeing, see Part 2 coming soon) to believe the things that God was saying about me through the scripture that my sister gave me in prayer, my self esteem is now on a higher level, I think more highly about myself (not conceited, but confident in who God says I am) I’m no longer limiting my self-worth to what the enemy is saying. Why else did God want me to change the way I thought about myself? Let’s look at the 2nd part of the verse: “Then you will know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect”. If I see myself through the lies of the enemy, then it’s hard to see God’s good, pleasing, and perfect will for me. So a few days ago, the situation involving the low self-esteem that I was dealing with began to rise up again, but I believe God was wanting to bring it up because He was wanting to deal with another area of why my self-esteem was low. As He began to show me another area, I gave it over to Him and began to read my verse in the chapter my sister gave me and He immediately showed me my “from ashes to beauty”, moment and how He plans on using “what the enemy meant for bad” through my low self-esteem for His will for my life, which is pleasing and perfect, but I never would have known or experienced any of this (self esteem booster, one of God’s will for me) if I wasn’t meditating on the Word, spending time with Him, or allowing Him to allow my mind to line up with His Word. I know that this is cutting off in the middle, but stay tune to Part 2 coming soon. In the meantime I want you to think about what you are thinking about, if it’s not lining up with what God rebuke it, and begin to think about what God says about the matter. Allow God’s Word to renew your mind.